saturday thailand thoughts

It's been a while since I've written anything on this here blog. I feel like I have been so busy, but also uninspired to share any stories or happenings going on in my life lately. There are points in life, especially while living abroad, that you question what you are really doing. I feel like I have been doing that lately. Why am I teaching? Do I even enjoy it anymore? What am I going to do when March comes around and it's time to decide the next step in my life. I love living in Thailand. The lifestyle is just easy. My job is simple and I have almost complete control of what I do. Everything is cheap, and I can find most things I need just a motorbikes drive away. But is it too easy? Is Thailand making me lazy? I fear that if I remain in this country longer, that perhaps my life could become a little lazy. Lazy in that there are not as many day to day challenges that I was faced with a year ago. Everyday brought on a new challenge. Chiang Mai is an unbelievable city, and frankly I feel bad that not everyone gets to live here and experience such a world. Life is better and simpler, but sometimes I like a challenge. I don't ever want to forget what I didn't have in the South. I hate when I complain that my fruit bowl is missing passion fruit or that the bread on my sandwich is a little old. I couldn't even get fruit bowls or bread before. 

I think it's just one of those weeks. The students were rowdy and disrespectful and my lesson was poorly planned. I've been thinking about the future a lot too and that always freaks me out. I want to keep living abroad, not in Thailand, but somewhere. I have more places to see, more people to meet, more cultures to delve into, but is teaching English my way of doing this? I sure hope so! Maybe a refreshing break in the States next summer will inspire me to keep living abroad and continue education with children. 

Anyways, just some rambley thoughts I felt like typing down. I got a new camera lens and can't wait to start taking more pictures. I want to fill this blog with more pictures and less talk. In a month I am going to Vietnam and I am so excited! It's been a while since I've hopped over to another country. I'm sure that will be just the inspiration I need!